hell0z(:

i was quite happy today. (: but.. i feel troubled. some things dhat i cant express thru talking-- my thoughts. so typing will be fine ar?

yup. today lessons went on so very fine. and it was quite funny too. (((: very lazy to update all laas. but.. its nice. (:

yup. den ermms.. today chinese quite fun. haha. &lit was funny. wahha. i saw her putting her hands in.. wahahhaha. =X so disgusted. :P

ohya.. one very very suay things. today i was veru urgent for toilet marr. and i queued up.. finally.. it was my turn kays. and i saw e one sitting behind de, e put her hands in de? den i was like " nevbermiinds, i urgent marr." so i rush in. gosh, i cant breathe kays. and when i came out.. its like... PHEW.. finally fresh air. so its e biggest mistake in my life so far to go to dhat toilet... >.<>her to yurn bad, as she is very nice. and i noe her for so long.. and we are quite close lor. and.. i dunoe what to say laas. i feel like shouting. i feel like exploding, i dont want my friends to turn bad, to do e wrong things®ret. nono, i dont want. i donno how to tell her these. i told her some, but some. i dono how to express. ke xiao right? i can be e one telling my friends, dont scold her, understand her. but.. i feel dhat.. why ledhat? i tot she wont do e wrong thing.. & now? although its over.. but.. i cant, aiya, i dono how to say laas. i feel so filled up with thoughts&feelings. AHHHHHHHH~ i feel like shouting just ledhat. but i haffta care for my xing xiang? LOL. :P i just duno how laas.

but.. i will get over it.. soon de. (:
YAY! my father let miee go hy dhat party le. (((:

dhats all laas.
((((:
MUAHS to all who cares for others. (:

i am scared of losing. losing those close to miee, losing hope, losing anything. i donno when this started, but i have e feeling of i might lose sth important.. soon. i am really afraid of losing.

i have grown up alot this year&have grown alot
grown more mature, grown more sensitive,
grown closer to my friends, grown alot.. alot..
but.. why have i grown to be so scared of losing&those fears?

bu guo, wo zhang da le bu shao o. (:

pffft, i cant stand these thoughts of mine. hack care it kays. i need to vent it out only.
if only.. i can.